Screams of my soul

Part 2 I have been looking closely at my life for the last 12 years. Who I have been, how I have evolved, but above all I have focused my attention on what I have allowed. It's a look back, not very... happy, but full of growth. Allow. What an important word. We don't pay enough attention to it and when our lives don't seem to be going in the direction our inner being needs, we have to ask ourselves questions. When I felt that my emotional life was not satisfying for me... when I felt that something was missing, I could no longer ignore the screams of my soul. In that moment, I had an obligation to myself to ask questions. I am a Buddhist, and just yesterday I was in a virtual conference with my great friend and teacher (although he doesn't like me calling him that) Carlos. We were decanting what it really means to be a Buddhist and not to go into details today, (I will surely write about that path of my life) yes I am. However, Buddhism is not my only branch of growth. I have many and I allow my inner being to guide me with serenity to look at other realities that I cannot avoid. Curiously, none of these realities ever move away from the principles of Buddhism or Buddhism never stops permeating my realities. I am infinitely grateful because it puts my feet on solid ground. I answered that I began my journey in Buddhism 16 years ago... but looking closely at my mental patterns and my analyzes of the realities that I lived, long before... Buddhism colored them in some inexplicable way. For this reason, I am no longer so sure when I started Buddhism or if it was Buddhism that started in me much earlier.